trans-fictionalism

sebastian nguyet snow

cover photo by katelin ayayo

i can’t wait to turn 18

i may be a boy but

i have no interest

in being a man

(to be the one that twists

my insides out)

when i was a kid

i pointed at ken dolls

i wanted to see myself

in something i could control

what is a body?

something you change, or something that changes you

i think i am a boy because

it’s not something i have to think about

a man pointed at me

on the subway and said,

“oh, that one’s mine”

my baby brothers don’t want to be

something they can own

 

i am my own victim

i am becoming my own choice

fight club but i’m gone before

i can talk about it